I just last week lost a close friend I've known since long-ago college days to ovarian cancer. She was something special, so I may have at least the barest, tiniest inkling of what you're going through now with your loss of Barb. My deepest sympathies. As for the rest of it, say it ain't so! I'm SO sorry to hear of your own condition; may you continue to fight the good fight, knowing you have such strong support and so many good SubCommittee thoughts behind you. I've always enjoyed our chats (and much appreciated your advice!) at the many Golden Gate Park Casting Pond fun runs in which we've interacted. I hope to see you again, and I'm sure something can be worked out with your wonderful boats such that they may be able to carry on your amazing sub hobby legacy—with you yet cheering from the sidelines...or rather, the pond banks!
My sincere condolences,
Sure writing is easy: just sit staring at a blank page until the drops of blood start forming on your forehead.